Ep 86

Welcome to the Hacker's Cache, the show that decrypts the secrets of cybersecurity, one bite at a time. I'm your host, Kyser Clark. And this episode, I'm going to be talking about your purpose in cybersecurity.

For those who don't know, for those who might've realized, I did take a little bit of a break from my content creation, and there has been a very good reason for that, I've been struggling personally with finding my purpose within cybersecurity. And a lot of it has to do with that is being a veteran. And there's a lot of days where I regret getting out of the military.

So the time of this is released, it is Veteran's Day. So happy Veteran's Day to all of my fellow veterans. And I just want to make this for people who are deciding to transition out of the military and people who are already out of the military in cybersecurity, and I'm going to kind of give you my personal experiences in that transition and what your life actually is post-military.

If you haven't been in the military, don't worry, because this is also going to be applicable to you in some way, shape, or form, because I think there's a lot of good lessons here. So for those who don't know, I am a military veteran. I served in the United States Air Force in cyber defense operations for six years.

I got out, became a penetration tester after a year and a half of being a pen tester, I was let go from that position. And I spent like six months trying to figure out what the heck I want to do. And I've made some videos about that.

You can go back and watch those. And I talked a lot about burnout and, you know, what does this industry mean? Is it worth being an industry? We're not going to answer those questions in this episode because I already covered that at length in previous episodes. So go check us out if you are interested in that.

What we're going to talk about is finding purpose within cybersecurity, because it is not easy, especially if you are a military veteran or, and this is a warning to people who are deciding to get out of the military, there's been many, many times since I was let go from that pen testing position, where I just want to go back in the military because I love that profession. I love that job so much. I love pretty much everything about it.

The only thing I didn't like about it was the pay and I didn't like the freedom to live where I wanted to. Those are the only two things I really didn't like. And I don't think getting, changing jobs or getting into a career field is for the money is a good idea.

And I have learned that the hard way, because that was one of the main reasons why I decided to separate out of the military, because I was like, man, I'm too smart and I worked too hard to only make this small amount of money when I can get out of the military and double my salary, which is exactly what I did. And, and that way it doesn't make sense. Because everybody needs money to live.

Everybody needs money to do whatever they, to live free and to do what they do with comfortably and, and less stressful because money does, money problems are very stressful and you don't want those. I've been poor. I know what that's like.

I wouldn't want to go back and getting into cybersecurity just for the money. It's cliche. We've talked about it multiple times.

And there was even an episode where one of my guests did say it was okay to get into the field for money. And I don't agree with that. I think if you're getting into the field just for money, that is not a valid reason to get in this field.

And I told myself that when I was transitioning out of military, getting to cybersecurity in the civilian sector, I was like, oh, I'm going to be protecting businesses and people from cyber criminals and it's going to protect people in the digital cyberspace. And that was the purpose. That was the mission.

And my, another part of my mission was to make the content I do and inspire others to get into the digital battlegrounds and protect people from and businesses from cyber criminals. And I think that's a very noble cause, but when you get into the field, which is what I learned very quickly, it doesn't feel like you're protecting anybody from anything. It just feels like you're just checking boxes, compliance check boxes.

No one cares about cybersecurity. It's not about protecting a business. It's about being compliant with laws and regulations.

I think a lot of organizations out there truly don't care about cybersecurity, which what I talked about, there's a lot of reasons for that because most people aren't interested in cybersecurity. Most people aren't interested in tech. And when they get cybersecurity services or they hire cybersecurity professionals, they don't want to do it because it's very expensive and they don't understand it at all.

And even if you try to explain it to them, they're not more times than not, they're not going to listen to you. And it's very hard to find purpose in that environment, right? You're like, what am I even doing? That's for what the heck am I doing? And I'm sure a lot of you people listening who are already in the field, you're also struggling with that. I know that because I talked to a lot of you, I think that's pretty normal.

I don't think there's really anything you can do about it, but that's, that's just been my personal experience. And I've also heard many stories that are similar to that. And that's why the burnout rate is incredibly high.

And I talk about burnout and burnout is normal. And when I talk about burnout, a lot of people tend to reach out to me and say, oh my gosh, thank you for bringing this up. I'm burned out.

I thought I was the only one. You're not the only one just feels very demanding. It takes a lot of time.

It takes a lot of skills, takes a lot of knowledge. It's not easy. So burnout is unfortunately inevitable.

So what do you do when you burn out? How do you find purpose? I have personally been struggling with that a lot, and I'm still figuring that out, by the way. I don't have all the right answers, which is why I had to take a break from content creation, because I can't give you advice if I can't even guide my own career, if I'm struggling in my own career, how can I give you advice? So when I'm not making content, especially this podcast, it's a lot has to do with the fact that I am personally struggling in my own career. I did not have it all figured out.

I never pretended to have it all figured out. I just tell you what I know, and I tell you what I'm doing. And I tried my best.

You know, what have I done that's worked? What have I done that's failed? And then go from there and answer questions that you guys might have. So if you're, if you don't have it all figured out, that's okay. Cause nobody has it all figured out.

And if someone pretends like they have it all figured out, then they are most likely lying. And maybe there are people that have it all figured out and they have the perfect work-life balance and they have the perfect purpose. And if that's you pass off to you, but I just feel like that's so rare and it might not even exist.

There might not be a single person out there and anybody who claims that there's a very good chance that they are aligned to you or even themselves. So that disclosure out of the way, how do you find your purpose in cybersecurity? And the, the answer is, I don't know. And I'm figuring out myself.

Like I said, in, I have shifted my purpose more from, oh, I want to help businesses and people and make a lot of money to, I'm just trying to make a living and I'm just trying to survive in this chaotic world that we live in these days and I can make an, I can make an honest living doing something that I mostly like, I don't like it every day. And there's some days where I hate it and just go from there. It's not a perfect profession.

Um, and, but that's what I'm good at. And I have no other, I have no other choice. Personally, I can't do anything else because I'm not, I'm not skilled enough to do other things.

I can do other things. I can learn to do other things, but I'm just not willing to put in the time for energy it takes to, to do other stuff because I'm not really passionate about anything other than cybersecurity, if I'm honest, so I'm kind of stuck here. And I can't, I was like, man, how can I escape this field? Like, I've been thinking about that.

Like, how can I escape the field? How can I do something else? What else do I like to do? And the answer was nothing really. I mean, if, if it was up to me, like I would just play video games 24, seven, if I can get paid to play video games, I would, but I've already tried that, I do have a, I do have a Twitch channel and I did, um, playing video games and that didn't really work out. I've tried it many, many, many times.

Um, and it's just, it's just something I can't do, make a living out of because I'm not as good as in video games as I am in cybersecurity or as knowledgeable. So here I am. So this is my second choice.

Unfortunately, it's not my, this is not my first choice in profession, if I'm honest with you. I, that's why I didn't join the cybersecurity profession until I was 24. It took me, you know, uh, four years of, of failure on my gaming channel to realize that it wasn't going anywhere.

And maybe I could have made it go somewhere if I tried harder, but I didn't know any better. But I did try to go, I did, when I was on my break, I did try it again and it's just still ain't going anywhere. I just, I have a lot more success making this content and not gaming content.

Although I have way more fun making gaming content, that is for sure. Because cybersecurity is very stressful. There's a lot you have to know.

And there's a lot at stake in cybersecurity. You have to constantly upskill, you have to constantly put in effort. Like this isn't a nine to five.

I always said that it's not a nine to five. You have to put in 50, 60 hours a week, every single week. And that's just a fact of life in this field.

And if you're not willing to put in that kind of work, then this isn't the field for you. So finding purpose is incredibly difficult. I don't know how to do it exactly.

And the only thing that I have been doing is just continuing to learn, continuing to find a place in this field and then just see where it goes. I don't have it all planned out. Like my original plan was, Oh, I'm going to be a pen tester.

Then I'm going to be a senior pen tester. Then I'm going to become a red teamer, then a senior red teamer, then a manager of red teamers. And then maybe a director of cybersecurity and later in my career.

But if I'm honest with you, like, I don't know where my career is going. I would, I still want something similar. I do want to eventually get in some kind of non-technical role.

I do want to get off the keyboard. I do recommend getting off the keyboard because that's where the, that's where the burnout happens because all the labs you get to do and all the training you have to do and all that work you have to do on the keyboard. In the terminal and configuring things is very exhausting.

It doesn't work all the time. And what you did last week is going to be different this week at the tools constantly change. And the checklist that you had last month doesn't work this month and you have to constantly update it.

You have to constantly figure out why doesn't this work? You know, there's a guide on how this works. How do I figure it out? And you got to figure out how to do it on Google. You got to watch someone's YouTube video and figure out how it works.

A lot of people in tech and people in cybersecurity already know this. People who haven't been in, I'm just telling you, that's how it is. It's very frustrating dealing with tech because nothing works like it's supposed to, like almost nothing.

And if it does, it won't work good for long. And that's a fact of life and in this profession, because one update changes an entire network. And that's our jobs as tech and cybersecurity professionals to figure that out.

And that's really challenging. So personally, I, I want to go from technical to a non-technical role. I'm, I'm a highly technical.

I've been ethical hacker for a while now, and I have tons of time in the terminal, like way, way more than the average person, that's for sure. And I have a lot of skills, but it just, it's just so hard to keep up, to keep those skills up because if you don't practice it all the time, two months down the road, you're, those skills kind of just go away because everything got updated and everything changed. The commands change, technologies change, and it's hard to keep up with.

And it drives you to madness. It drives you to madness as well. This is why it's a high burnout rate in this field, unfortunately.

And that's why personally, what I'm trying to do is, you know, go from a technical to a non-technical role eventually when I'm older, because I don't want to do this, I don't want to do this on a keyboard all the time. In my, in my forties and fifties and sixties, I don't. And if I'm honest with you, I want to retire before I'm 50.

I don't want to work past 50 because I can't, I personally can't. I thought I could work in this profession until I was 80 cause I loved it. And the truth is I'm falling out of love with it every, closer to falling out of love with it every single day.

And my goal is to just hit retirement as soon as I can and then just be done because it's, it's that exhausting. It's that demanding and it's that frustrating and I hate to say it, but that's just the reality of the situation. The good news is if you put, really put an effort and a time into this field and this profession, you can retire before 50, you can't, you can absolutely do that, you don't need to wait until you're 65 to retire, 63 or 62, whatever retirement age is, you don't have to, because the pay is, the pay is there.

The pay is there. The pay that you see online, sometimes they are a little lying, but it is, it's out there, you can make very good money in this profession, you can make very good money in this profession and you can retire early if you really manage your money correctly. And that's my, that's my goal.

And my goal is more about being personal relationships because I've neglected my personal relations for a while now. I've talked, I mentioned this, I mentioned this on one of my other episodes, maybe multiple times now. And that's actually where I've been lately.

That's why I've been making content because I've, I started a new relationship and I've been dating this girl for like four months now and it's been fun. And I just have no, I just had no desire to make content because it's the, it's not what matters at the end of the day, in my opinion, like you do need to take care of your family and your friends and those relationships matter way more than your career. I used to think that people who put their family above their career was making a mistake, but I don't have a family.

I don't have any, I'm not married, I don't have any kids, but I'm like, why wouldn't you want to put effort in your career? Because if you put effort in your career, you can use that money to take care of your family, but it is important to put time into that things. And I learned that the hard way. I did have a relationship fail because I wasn't putting in the proper time, effort, energy into it.

And I don't want to make that mistake again with my relationship. I just started, which is why I took a break about a month break from content creation, but another reason I took a month break from content creation is because the last job, my cybersecurity cloud security engineer job, I ended up leaving that position and I am currently not working. Although I did accept the job offer last week, so I will be working next month.

I got to wait a month before I start working at this new position. With that being said, even though I did accept the job offer, I am still open to do interviews with other companies and I am still willing to test the waters and see what else is out there because I am struggling. A lot of, a lot of interviews like, what are you looking for in your role? And I'm like, I'm not really sure.

I'm just seeing what's out there because I know what I don't want to do. And that was what I did my, my cloud security engineer job and what I did my pen testing job. I don't want to do that ever again.

At least not exclusively where I can do some pen tests for clients, but I don't want to do a back to back to back weeks. I can do some MSP type work, but I don't want to do that back to back to back weeks. And I don't want to get into like why that last position failed.

Cause I know a lot of people was going to ask me like, well, what happened to that last job? That's another story for another time. Just know that it wasn't a good fit for me. And I had removed myself from that situation.

And once that's another, that's actually the main reason why I took a break is because of, because of that, I'm like, I don't want to make content. Um, when I, when I'm not kind of just grossed out with this field, because every position that I get out of the military, just, I just hate it's a powerful word, but I did really hate my last job, um, which is why I removed myself from that situation. Uh, but I was only, so I took a month break and I did, uh, I, I turned my open work banner on LinkedIn and within three weeks, like it's on the job offer.

So what I say in terms of how to get a position in cybersecurity totally works. Because this is now another job that I have found within a month of turning my open to work banner on LinkedIn. And despite having low time in other companies, so that, that kind of busts the myth that, oh, you only work for that company for a year.

Oh, you only work for that. Cause I only worked for my last company for two months. Definitely doesn't seem like it's good on the resume, but it's, it didn't really affect my chances of, of finding new work because I did tons of interviews.

With tons of companies. I'm still interviewing with several companies and I did accept the job offer, but just because I said the job offer doesn't mean I'm going to stop interviewing because back when I got in the military, I did accept the job offer. I'm like, oh, I'm good.

I do my hands up. I'm good. I'm just going to rest and relax.

I'm going to enjoy my time here between military and his career and do nothing. And that really bit me in the butt because they were sitting in the job offer because the work order got canceled. And because even though I said a job offer and I have a start date already, they can resend a job offer at any time.

So I am under no obligation to stop interviewing. So I'm going to entertain every single opportunity that I possibly can. I highly recommend that you do that as well.

And I learned that the hard way, but because I learned that lesson, I know now, Hey, I actually had a job offer last week, keep interviewing because there could be a better opportunity around the corner and now the job offer that I just accepted could just go away. And if you're an employer that works for the company, I just accept a job offer to, um, that's just a reality situation. It's nothing against you.

It's just, I've been, I've been backstabbed by a company who I accept a job offer. And then they say, yeah, just kidding. We're sending your job offer for no reason, no reason at all, because of work was over, was over.

It was no fault of my own. It's nothing I did wrong, but that's just, um, you know, I continue to look for work until I am actually there in working. In fact, I will still keep looking for it until I get the paycheck.

That's actually my role. Like I will keep my open a work banner up until I get paid until I get paid, my open work banner is up. So, but I'm not really sweating employment because it does seem like a very good opportunity that I'm excited about if you don't know what that is.

It's a, uh, senior network engineer role working for an international guard unit for a company that works for an international guardian. So it's, it's in the military, which is, uh, so, uh, things that, you know, I had a hard time finding purpose in the civilian world because everything's about profits, but in the military and the government work, it's not about profits, it's about national security. And I was a huge fan of national security and, you know, serving my country and I get to serve my country from yet again, if I work here, um, I, like I said, I am entertaining some other opportunities and there might be some opportunities out there that are better for me, but that's a little bit what I, what I might be doing in the future.

And that's the job I have accepted. But like I said, it might not be the one I ultimately go with because I am interviewing with many companies at the moment. And the cool thing about it is I didn't, I didn't apply to any of these companies.

Actually they, I turned my open a work banner up and they started contacting me when you guys share my posts and you comment and let the algorithm do its thing, they find Kyser and then they message back and I really appreciate you guys support that got you guys that like my content has helped me grow my personal brand quite well and I don't even need to apply. I don't even need to fill out an application at all. I just hand out resumes and it's, it's been easy because I did so much work on here on YouTube and my podcast and on LinkedIn, just talking about pretty much sharing you all the information that I possibly can.

Everything that I've shared is everything I know. So that's another reason why I stopped making videos. Cause I just, I just don't know what to talk about.

Everything that I know I've already said, and I can just make the same stuff and repeat myself, but I don't really like repeating myself. So that's why for those you've been following me, like that's what, why there was a break because I just didn't know what to say because I just, I wasn't learning anything because I was taking a little bit of a break and I was struggling with my own, my own purpose and finding work after I got, after I left the last job, you know, I was struggling like, Oh, what am I going to do now? I thought this job was going to be it. And it wasn't.

And I found out real quickly and within two months and it was, and I found out even earlier than that, but I stuck it out for a couple months. So I thought maybe it might get better and it never did. So if you're feeling that way, that's okay.

And the job market is tough right now. That's a fact. And it is scary to leave a job that you, especially when you just started.

But if you're not, if you're not feeling it, you're not feeling it. And I, I highly recommend not working at a job that you don't love, or at least you don't like, you hate it. You, you gotta stop.

Life's too short to work at a job you hate. And that's what I said. And that's why I ended up ultimately leaving the last position.

Nothing wrong with that company or the people there. It just wasn't a good fit for me. Personally.

I think the people there was great. I think, I think the company they're doing great work, but personally, it just wasn't a place where I thrive. And I want to be in a spot where I can thrive, not, not just go through the motions, if that makes sense.

So there's a little bit of wisdom there and back to the veterans. Happy Veterans Day, by the way, again. You guys really need to think hard.

If you're still in the military, you need to think long and hard about leaving the military, because I has been many, many, many, many times where I regretted getting out of the military. Uh, because you can have a very good life in the military. If you're, if you enjoy the military and you're just upset about the pay, I would think twice about getting out.

Now, if you don't like the job and you don't like what the military's about and has, has very little to do with the pay, then yeah, go ahead and get out. But if the pay is the only reason why you're getting out, I would think twice about it because you have a lot of benefits and you have a lot of people who care about you. You have a lot of people who care about you in the military.

When you get to the civilian world, nobody cares about you anymore. You're literally an employee number on a spreadsheet. That's literally what you are.

And that was, that's hard. That, that sucks. And now every company is like that.

My first company that I worked for out of the military wasn't like that. Um, but I know a lot of companies don't like that. And, you know, working, being, I feel like ever since I left the military, I just feel like a corporate wage slave, if I'm honest with you, I feel like a corporate corporate wage slave.

And another reason why I've been taking a break is because, um, you know, I don't like to talk about politics and religion on my podcast here, but, uh, it is part of my personal journey. So I'm even going to say it. So I have became a Christian.

Once again, I've reestablished my faith in my relationship into Jesus and God once again. And that's been a journey that I've been putting a lot of time into. I've been studying the Bible.

Um, just about as just as hard as I've been studying cybersecurity, because that's stuff that I want to know. Uh, because, um, that's what I have been called to do. And that's been very enjoyable for me.

And that's why I had to take some time from cybersecurity. That's another reason why there as well. Um, and, and God's helped me find my purpose.

Once again, I had a very good service at church. Uh, it's Monday as, as a time recording this, but, uh, this be released on Wednesday, but yesterday at church was a very good message about putting the work. My pastor was like, Hey, get back to work.

So now I was like, he's right. I gotta get back to work. I gotta, I gotta focus on my mission, finish what I started and stop slacking because I haven't slackened because I've been burnt, burnt out.

Wondering what the heck I'm going to do. And I firmly believe that God gave me the gift of cybersecurity for a reason. The gift of technology and the gift of problem solving for a reason.

And the gift of talking very well for a reason. So I think that sticking with cybersecurity and content creation, both in my professional career and my content creation, I'm going to stick with it because I got that gift for a reason. And I'm so I'm starting to understand what that reason is.

Although I'm still not entirely sure. I just know I got to keep my foot on the gas, keep going. And I don't have all the answers now, but I know that's the right thing for me to do.

And that's why I'm making this video now and not putting it off any longer. Cause I've been, it's been eating at me. I'm like, man, I mean, it's like, I'm disliking having to make content.

And I, but I'm like, but, you know, I'm learning all this about Christianity and I'm, you know, learning about my new girlfriend and we're going out and have fun and we're trying to get to know each other. And it's, it's been a lot, a lot at one time, a lot of change at one time. So I started a new, a faith journey.

I started a relationship and I'm looking for employment again. So it's like three things at one time, religion, relationships and career, three new journeys all at the same time. And that's very overwhelming.

So forgive me if you was a little annoyed that I was not making content. I know a lot of you guys love my content and I appreciate your support and I appreciate your patience, but I don't have it all figured out and I'm not afraid to admit that, but that's okay because I know a lot of you people, a lot of you listeners and viewers have very similar issues and you see guys are like, Oh, how does he do? I always get a question. How does he do it? How does he do it? And I always tell people, look, I have a lot, I have a high drive.

How worried I think I have a high discipline, but my relationships were just absolutely garbage. Absolutely garbage. And I got to the point that I am right now without having good relationships, without having any faith, because I was, I was an atheist for 11 years.

I grew up Christian, turned my back on God. I was an atheist for 11 years and now I'm Christian again. And, um, thankfully I've been, I w I was blessed even though I was an atheist cause I had a very good life, uh, when I was, uh, unfaithful.

So, yeah, I don't want to talk too much about religion, but that's a huge part of my journey and it's one of the reasons why I'm going through what I'm going through now, because I'm going through a lot. I'm going through a lot of change all at the same time here. And it's exciting.

It's very exciting. And I, the future looks bright to me, um, in some certain areas. And, you know, I look at the political landscape and I see where our events and I'm like, it's looking kind of ugly out there, but I have to remain optimistic because it doesn't do me any good to not be optimistic.

It doesn't do you any good not to be optimistic. You might see, you might, you might look at the election that just happened and you might not like it. Uh, like myself and you're just like, man, what an ugly, what an ugly political battlefield out there.

And you see all this stuff and all these crimes going on and you see the world events and it just, the world looks like an ugly place, um, which is one of the reasons why I turned back to Jesus is because, um, I see a lot of evil in the world these days. And so, but if that's you as well, like I'm feeling it too. And I'm sure a lot of other people are feeling as well, but you gotta remain optimistic.

I do think overall good will prevail and good things are going to happen if you, if you take care of the things that need to be taken care of your faith, your family, your friends, your career, your body. And, and I haven't always been doing that. It was, it was all a hundred percent career.

I lived a very, very, very unbalanced life for a very long time. And I'm trying to figure out what balance means for me. And that's something that I've been struggling with every day for a long time now for a very long time now.

So, um, it's not easy to figure out, but it's okay to admit this things and it's okay to talk to other people because I have talked to some other professionals in the field about these very topics privately, and there's other people who have any struggles too. And I said, well, if I'm having multiple conversations about the same struggles that I'm having, then my audience, you, the viewers, like listener, there's a very good chance you're also facing similar struggles. And it's okay not to have it all figured out.

So finding your purpose in cybersecurity, how do you do it? The answer is, I don't know. And the only thing you can do is just for me, that's just, I pray right now because I truly don't know. This is one of the reasons why I went back, um, into my faith is because I don't know.

So I just pray every day. Like, God, tell me what to do. And I'm just waiting to receive those instructions.

And once I get those instructions, I will carry them out. And yes, yesterday at church that my pastor was like, talking about work. And here I am, I'm just getting back to work on my podcast here.

And I don't know what this is going to, what it means or what, where it's going to go, but I know I got to do something because if I'm not in motion, then nothing good can happen. So that's, I think that's the biggest takeaway here. If you're not in motion, nothing good could happen.

So stop being lazy Kyser. And if that's you and you're being lazy, it's easier said than done. Trust me, trust me.

It's easier said than done, but being lazy is not where it's at. And it's something that drives me nuts. But my, what, why I was lazy is because it's like, when you had the lack of purpose, it's like, what am I even doing this for? Right.

I don't want to work for no reason. There's gotta be a reason. And for me, the reason has a lot to do with my religion has now in, I don't know exactly what, what that means.

Uh, but I know I gotta do something because that, that, that was a gift that God gave me the cybersecurity and kind of creation, and that's what I'm going to start doing. So, um, my content is going to be a little bit different. It's not going to be a religion podcast, but do know this, that everything that I do talk about is going to come from a place from my faith and, um, in God's guiding my personal journey and my career into my life, um, quite a bit.

And, and you're going to see some differences, uh, from my content moving forward, because from, um, for a very long time, I was an atheist and now I'm not, so that's a huge change that that's a huge change. So I am personally, I have changed a lot as a person, uh, lately due to these career struggles and some personal issues as well, uh, with relationships. And, um, my career, my career challenges that I've had not finding satisfaction in my work and just really struggling post-military.

Yeah. I haven't been thriving post-military. I can honestly say that I haven't been happy ever since I left the military.

And that's why I wish sometimes I do wish I never went back and there's been times where I almost went, I almost did go back and I didn't, they wouldn't let me go back for, cause they didn't have enough slots for prior service members. Uh, but now I don't want to go back into military cause I have started a new relationship. And I know if I go back to military, that that's going to be over.

And I really enjoy, I really enjoy hanging out with my girlfriend. I do. We're having a good time.

So it's important for me to work on that as well. But with all that being said, I still am going to make content. My goal is to make two videos a week.

I've only, um, I've been hit or miss lately and that's my fault. But you understand that the world is beating me up right now. And because I started my faith journey, I personally believe that I am under attack by demons constantly because when I was an atheist, no demons was attacking me because I was going straight to hell and now that I'm faith, faithful to my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, I'm attacked by Satan and demons every single day.

And I'm not used to these attacks because I went 11 years being an atheist, not getting attacked is why Satan doesn't need to attack someone. That's where I'm on the path to hell. But now that I'm on a path to heaven, I'm getting attacked and the struggles have been just crazy, crazy.

Um, ever since I, I accepted Lord Jesus Christ, my Lord and Savior once again. So I didn't want to talk too much about religion, but that's, that's personal I've been struggling with. So what does it mean for you? I'm not going to tell you where you need to put your faith in.

What I will say is the struggles are real and you, it's hard to figure out. It's hard to figure out and you're not alone in the journey. And there's a lot of people struggling right now in the, in this career field.

Cause once again, it's a very hard, very difficult profession to live. And I'm only eight years in and I'm like, man, I still got another 20, 30 years, maybe 40, and I'm like, how am I going to do it? You know, cause it's, it's very tiring. It's very demanding.

You got to put in so much time after work, got to be on call. You got to study for your certifications. You got to do the labs in your free time.

And then while you're at work, you got problem after problem that no one's ever seen before, ever saw before, and you're constantly solving problems that no one's really around to. And it's just a very hard field, very grueling, very demanding. And if you're feeling that pressure, you're not alone.

And I don't have the perfect answer to make it all go away. But the only thing you can do is just figure out what works for you. And what works for you is going to be different from what works for another person and what works for me.

So it's different for everybody. So hopefully you got some value out of this guys. Happy Veterans Day to the veterans.

Once again, thank you for your service and hit the subscribe button if you're on YouTube. If you're listening on audio, rate the show five stars would help this show out tremendously. And you can expect consistent content on the channel and on the podcast once again.

And hopefully I see you in the comments and hopefully I see you in the next episode. Until then, this is Kyser signing off.